Thanks for opening up, Michael. I understand exactly where you’re coming from and some days I often ask, “are there any people in the pulpit actually serious above loving their neighbor or just talking about rules?” I then get all judgey thinking I’m the only one doing it right, and well, when you head down that path you end up like the people you despise in Christianity. So it’s a challenge for sure. But I can promise there are good men and women inside Christianity doing their best and looking more like the man they claim to follow.
Oh, one more thing. Questions and doubt are essential so those who tell you otherwise don’t really grasp faith, because without doubt you can’t have faith. Here’s an (OLD) article I wrote on that that may help: