Christopher, I recently attended a book signing and speaking event from one of my favorite authors who’s kind of a rising star in the fantasy and sci-fi arena. He shared how he wrote several books that all got rejected. The book that he pitched that became a NYT Bestseller got rejected over 120 times. He said he was about to give up being a writer period for the very same reasons you listed. He told this one story about a book he wrote that he asked his mom to read. After she said she read it, he invented a character and asked if she loved his narrative, to which she agreed and he realized she got bored and skimmed his book. His point was that it sucks hard when you’re proud of the work you do and your work goes in the gutter. But he encouraged the writers in the room to keep writing because in their blood.
You have a gift. And I’m willing to bet even if you tried to quit, you couldn’t. It’s in your blood.
Keep writing. Even when no one listens.